some things don't change... but they have to...

Okay how long has it been since i been on here?

I don't even know, but mannn this was blogging at it's finest. Never would i have thought to be able to come on this blog site again. you been around since 2009... and well, it's 2019.

yeah, a lot has surely changed.

and yeah... A LOT ... has changed.

but nothing hasn't. and that was your endurance... to keep going. even when it hurts. and it hurts... BAD.

but how tf do i keep doin it? i have no clue...

idk how much my young self knew about her feelings or emotions, but nothing is the same.

and it's okay. very much so.

I love you though. you don't have to do much but just know that you're doing enough. and just know there is someone looking out for you. praying for you... maybe even thinking about you when He knows He's not supposed to :/ hahaha smh


anyways, ugh... i just hope you find peace... <3 nbsp="" p="">
geddit sis hehe. 

Hiii! [:

Well gosh, where do i start? Hmmm... Oh, well It's almost the end of the 2010 Summer season and I'm just gettin a week of chillin ! [: hahaha, yeah, for a summer, i was busy busy busy!!! That's the beauty of being samoan right ? haha [: anyways, yess, I was on road trip to Bakersfield, CA to pursue my duty for the church out there. The assembly churches from Seattle were invited to a little gathering out there to perform and have my senior pastor preach during that weekend. Went for a whole 3 days, !!!! Ughh! mann, it was hell goin out there, buht coming back was a breeze! ;D I was happy to finally make out there because it wasn't final whether i was going to go or not! it was cool tho!... And then, a whole bunch of events were happening, we had an open mic night at my church and we had one of our members coming back from his new home, the Marshall Islands, and he also brought some friends over to perform for us his well done music work out there. It was pretty cool getting to meet the kids that he teaches... And man oh man are they SMALL! hahah [; super short and everything.... we felt like giants ! haha[: damm samoans! Anyways,,, yeah, it was pretty awesome... And now, I'm finally away from Seattle again and I'm here wif my older sister who is living out here in Portland, OR and I'm just lovin it here... still doin chores, buht at least i have more chill time!!! I'm loving it ! too bad im leaving this weekend>.< haha i love it !!! What's so weird is that i've been missing my older sis all week last week... i was just goin through hella stuff with my mom and such, and i was so planning on just running away! Yeahh, waht a loser huh ? Well, i was so liek, on depression mode last week and i just wanted to get out!!! So then my older sis came to my house on Sunday and i was liek, hold up ! I'm spending the rest of the week with you... in portland... okay? haha yeahh! it was like the most exciting idea i've ever had... and then i asked my mom and dad and it was okay!!! Then we were off! and that's when i knew it was true!!!
God really does Answer Prayers!!! hahaha [: No joke tho!!! I love him so much...

Okay, well it's cool now, im just chillin and im very happy now! buht, you know, it's cool to be homesick too ! haha [: PEACESS!!!

Too Long [:

Wow... It's been a while since I've blogged... I guess since i was in tech last year. Well, there's been so much going on lately wif me and family... buht you know, it's all in the past... im in the now !!! Yayyy! [: hahaha i love it

AWW MAN ! Education is everything I guess... =\

Well I finally understand why we need our education and good grades. A lot of times, I think of it as a threat in like a whole different order. If you don't get good grades, you don't get anything. And I mean ANYTHING ! Haha. When I really want something, I have to be checked on grades and how I'm doing in school. I know it's a good thing. I understand now that what I'm doing and what the teachers are doing is not invain

I would just like to take the time to apologize to my teachers. I've been having crazy behaviors in each class that I have. Even though my grades or what I'm doing is none of their business, but the still have faith in us students. Well, most of us (: I know I'm not part of them. But, all my teachers know that I can do better. I know I can too. It's just me. I feel like I have another "Lucy" in me. I don't know how to explain it. But, there is a side of me that wants to work hard and to succeed. Although, there is another side that wants is too much outgoing that goes too far and doesn't want to work at all and that only occurs like that with its surroundings. I know, I'm crazy !!! Oy

It's kind of weird, but it's real. I'm more outgoing than into the books person. Man!!! Why can't I be the books person? Ugh, I never felt this way before. I guess I still have a elementary/middle school mind in me. I really need help to get my mind into being in HIGH SCHOOL ! It's really frustrating sometimes. I don't want to say that I'm dumb, but I know it's true. I try to be funny, though my grades are funny looking. Ugh, just writing this is frustrating to me.

Well, I hope I get my grades up before the quarter ends this Friday. Aww mann !!! Oh well (:

Suprise(:

OMG!!! Today has been the most coolest day ever. Since you've heard about my family and we been doing for my Dad(: Today was the day. He really loved it and everybody crying like forever. He would never thought about having a birthday party like this. He loved it so much(: Everybody was crying nonstop. Especially my dad.

Today was a good day <3 My dad loved it and is very happy(:

xD <3 ohkie xD <3

Awesome Week(:

This week has been really awesome...(as you read my topic;; haha) So, it all started with my sister coming up from Portland, and she came for her kids because it was their spring break. It was a handful because it was those kids and my middle sister's kids. Yeah! Being the auntie was really tiring. Laugh, laugh, laugh... Even though they were a hassle, it all paid off at the end. It's so awesome being with them because I grew up with them. When I was 5, I was officially an Auntie... Ugh;; also the babysitter which was not cool. Haha, but it's all good. They came out nice. Anyways, it was cool and then the next week, (this week), they have school. So it's just me and my sister at home. Monday, that's when the party started;; Cough, cough. Sike, we just walked to Kent Station and back. Haha, It was fun though. Just the little things you get with your siblings is like the best. I say that from experience

I love my sisters so much. You know, since I'm the youngest, I mean the YOUNGEST. My sisters are 33 and 32. Yeah, I don't think I could survive with their love and support through my life. I don't think I could ever do anything without them by my side. I love them. Then, Tuesday we did some more walking. It was fun. We had to turn in an application for zumiez. My sister is looking for a job right now and as we were going around Kent Station, we were just asking for applications or if they were hiring. The funny thing was, I haven't seen any brown person the whole time we were there. Not to be racsist, but it was funny. Haha, It was just awesome being there. Then yesterday and today we rested, and today is my Dad's birthday. He is 75 years young. haha, I love it

What he doesn't know is that my mom and all his kids are putting together a suprise party on Saturday. One of our sister from California is coming up tomorrow to see him and just to hang out with us until Sunday. All his family up here is invited. He's the only person that don't know about it. Thank God that he doesn't hear very well. Haha, I love it! It's been awesome.

This Whole month has been busy with this party and Easter stuff for church. Samoans, haha(: It's just been a blessed month and everyday is something different which I love. It's so cool.

Okay, I'm done <3 (:

who's there to save the hero ?

You know, I really don't know why I picked this topic, but, I'm listening to a song called "Save the Hero" by Beyonce Knowles. The lyrics really reached to my heart because it's really true sometimes. We all have a lot of heroes that are here to save us. But, who is there to save the "Hero" ?




I can't really relate to being a hero myself, although it's something to think about sometime. When I listen to this song, I think of all the tv shows that we've watched and superhero movies and how much, the hero is always there for the people. But are the people for them? Are people that stupid? Is the hero the smartest people in the world? There are a lot of superheroes who we know from tv and movies. But in the real world, we have superheroes of our own. Even Celebrities are heroes to me. They use all their talent(superpowers) to entertain or please the people who watch them. Heroes are here for everybody;; Don't sometimes you think back and think when you were little, there would always be this one person you wanted to be or be like? I know I have. I kind of think that way right now. Yeah, it sounds weird, but those people are our heroes.





We all have different point of views about famous people. We all want to pick up a fight, or somehow you get so obsessed, you search online or on tv on a show or webisode about that person. I know; I've been there. haha [: Anyways, I put a lot of thinking into this because it's true; Who is there to save them? Idk... But, that is something to think about... YOU KNOW ? haha [:
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Some more stuffs about Music;; and then some Church [:

Dude, I don't know what I would do without Music. I think that without it, I wouldn't be where I am at now. I mean, I go to church every Sunday and we have a worship singing team that leads the worship and stuff. It's rarely that anybody is picked to take that kind of commitment, and just to do it because you know how to sing. Well, I was chosen to sing in it. I started singing into the team when I was 11. Very young, I know. It was weird at first because, I was so used to singing for fun and just to do it because I was bored. But, singing for a an actual reason is something else. I know it's not what I asked for, but in my faith, I learned that we all have a will that we need to fulfill for God's glory. That's the reason we are all still living. Until you do what God wants you to do, You have to stay truly faithful in him and believe that he will get you through it. Starting out in the team, I knew I was going to get lectures and people talking to me left and right about how to live my life and how that what I'm doing is not invain.

Some negative stuff happens too. A lot of teens and even young adults some how gets troubled that this little girl is in the team. There are still people like that till this day. I was sometimes mocked and actually made fun of because of being in the singing team. I used to cry everyday and night from 3rd grade till 5th. I was a very emotional person. I didn't want it to happen anymore, I just wanted everybody to just be quiet and mind their own business. Even our leader thought that I wasn't good enough to be in the team, just because I was still going to school, and I was just too young. I couldn't believe it.

One time, during one practice, our team leader had one of the alto's to sing a solo. She took so long to sing it, and I was just kind of getting curious and wanted to try so I just busted out with the solo. Everybody was just looking at me with shock, though, while I was singing, my team leader was just yelling at the alto to sing it. She didn't say that she didn't want me to sing it, she just kept on scolding the poor old alto... Hahaha :) It was kind of funny. But, ever since that night, we never sang the song ever again. I thought I did well, though it was enmity that she had towards me. I cried that night because of just how cruel she looked and sounded. I never knew how I was going to survive in the singing team because I am so young and I really have no say because Samoans, they just want you to listen. No say, no nothing. Hahaha;; Fob... But yeah, It was really hard.

But, I was taught to keep on going. Don't worry or don't think about those people. They can talk all they want, try evertime to put you down. But, you are still standing, keep standing no matter what. And I prayed. I never hated them. Even though how mad I was, I wasn't mad at them, I was just mad at their actions. Just sometimes, I thought about why me? Why do I have this kind of talent and yet, I get destroyed by words and looks? I used to think about a lot of negative things and wished to get out of the singing team. But, I was just thinking that without me, I don't think that won't ever sound the same. Also, I was thinking that it's not for the people. It's for my God and no one else. So with my mentality set on that throughout my elementary years and middle school year, and then now High School year, I'm still in the singing team and is singing like crazy and just being happy as ever. Hahaha [: I just thank all my family and especially the man above for being there for me and I'm still alive and still here [:

So yeah, That's just something I wanted to share.
Lucylala <3

Is Education our EVERYTHING ???

I know it may be weird to ask a question like that, but that's something that I want to talk about. You know, growing up for me, everything was always, school, school, school. Everyday, then you come home, do "homework", go eat, sleep, and then start a whole new day, doing the same thing. And to be honest, I think that's what happening right now with me. I learned that education is a very important element in our lives right now, and without it, we would not succeed or not get what we want. And having all the disciplines, rules, and regulations all around us if we don't do our work or our behavior goes wack. Sometimes, I just sit in a classroom, and think about, 'Why Education?' I mean, must it be EVERYTHING? I also think of how, education is like another element in our lives is that if we don't got it, what kind of life do each of us have?

Education has been a big impact in different cultures too. In my culture, if you don't graduate the year that you were supposed to graduate, you will put a big an embarrasement towards your parents and family. Especially if you're the youngest. I don't want to sound vexed or recalcitrant or anything, but it just gives so much pressure on us students now days. We are all getting surrounded by new and approved things around us. We have all these stuff, we use them, but now properly or not using them to our advantage. You know, I was told that we have to be careful on what we do toward our elders and old people when we try to feel all bad and think that we can do anything by ourselves. But, when I hear that, I think, Why can't they hear on what WE have to say. Yeah, we are young, and we may not think that's right, but, to be a better person, even though you maybe old or not, you have to learn to understand before being understood.

As it goes for Education, we all have different ways to learn and educate our ownselves. Yeah, it's going to be different, but, you may want to listen to the other side of the story. I may have said too much, but it's what I've had in my mind for a while, and just want all you blog readers to think sometimes of what you're doing.
Thanks <3
Lucyee Ceey <3

Music!!! I <3 IT!!!

Well, my title says all. I love music. I think it's my passion and what I think is that without it, I don't know what or where I would be. I know I may sing good, and can dance like some famous people. But, it's not all about the fame. It's all about doing what you love and that's a fact. I really relate to a lot of songs that come my way. I am also all about the old school stuff.



I like the stuffs we have today, but you know all the music started back in the days. Old School songs really touch my heart and I love how they expressed their love and feelings towards their music. I really don't think that they did it for their own good. There are great legends in music, and even though some of them are gone physically, they are actually all around us. Oh yes. Okay, that's pretty much it. Thanks <3

Music is super awesome <3

Single Ladies(Put a ring on it) by: Beyonce Knowles

I really like that song. It really shows what girls go through when they are alone. It says that a guy shouldn't give her things of the world, like gifts and stuff. But all she wants is love and care. It lets all the other single ladies that they are not alone. It also puts the guy on the spot because he was just being jealous for some reason when he sees her with another guy. He shouldn't be jealous because she is not part of his life anymore. It's not worth it. So then she just keeps telling him that if you liked me, then why not give me a ring? or let me know that you truly love me. Very nice.

HMM...

There's really nothing to say... Actually today is Saturday, January 10, 2009. It's a day of rest for us students. Haha, just made that up. I think Saturday is a best day of the week. You know we all have to go through so much through the week and we think that it will never end. But, once Saturday hits, it's like a huge bomb came in and blasted everything away and you don't have nothing else to do but Chill. Weird I know. I'm just saying because this week was a very stressful week and super busy. Waking up every morning for school and then come back home and doing homework. And then next week is going to be stressful also because of semester finals. = I'm super scared about that. I just hope I study enough to have a decent score on it. x] Hmm.. I think that's about it. I really don't have anything else to say but, have a good day and a good SATURDAY... a day of rest<3
[[looseehlahlah]]

a chore I dislike =I

I don't know why I want to talk about this but, I'm bored so leave me alone or just close this window rite now. At the house, there is just one chore I don't like and that is...*drumroll*... Cleaning the BATHROOM!?! =/ EWWW! I know. I just don't understand how it gets dirty like behind the toilet and stuff. Oh, it's so gross. But it has to be done you know. So, yeah. It's like not cool. I'm just scared because if there's any small critters anywhere because we have a window in it. It's so scary. Even when you have to scrub everything down. UUGGHH, it's so gross. But just the result after, it looks so beautiful, and because I did it. :] But I still don't like it. It's so hard work. But oh well, if I don't do it, who will? Of course my parents because they are super old and they can barely bend down or even do anything. And that's why I'm here. OHKIE!!! Talk to y'all later. Buh Byee! =] lucylalah ceehh

20 things that I'm afraid of...

I'm not really going to say all the things I'm afraid of, But there is one that gets me all the time. One of my biggest fears is getting a baby.

Being a girl is not an easy task. I know I'm older now, and I can get a chance of having a child. But it is not a good age to get one, and that's not my point. My point is, I don't know if I'll be ever ready to take that one step in life to hold a living thing inside of me. I know it's a huge responsibility to take. It's something that I don't think I want to happen, and not to deal with it any time soon. =l ... There will be a good thing that will happen out of it and it's the fact that you brought another human being in this world.

That's my greatest fear ever and hoping it won't ever happen. =I

OHEEMMGGEEHH!!!! ITS 2 DAYS B4 CHRISTMAS[:

WHOAAA<333>

Peace:) Peace is just something that we all expect to have on that day. I think that peace is just a special word for relaxation for everybody. It's a day that we spend time with our families and with people that we haven't seen for a long time, or somebody you haven't seen since, Yesterday[: But also, the quiet time you have after all the commotion and chaotic events that happened. No kind of drama that ever happened. We all know that Christmas is the most OMG day. (: It's just a day of no rest. But, when you do get rest, that's peace. So yeah, that's what I think peace means.

Joy:) Let's see, I think joy is the most complicated emotion to have. Trying to please somebody of that gift and present, you just want to see them with the Joyful face. I think joy comes from children the most because the moment they get their gifts and what they wanted, they have that feeling inside them and they just love it. Gift of giving is another thing with joy. You should have a joyful heart when you give to somebody or giving to those in needy. It's the most important. And yeah...[:


And last but not least::

Love:) Well, we have the most important word. Love is just something that goes around on this day. Christmas is all about love. Without love, we wouldn't have peace or joy. All around there is love. Love can come from a present, from just saying it, or just being there for that special somebody... Giving and having love is most important in our lives. Having that fellowship time with your family and friends, it just gots Love written all over. You can give love with a kiss or a hug. I prefer to hug thank you very much... lol... but yeah... It's what I think is the coolest and SOOPER IMPORTANT element of Christmas and of our lives.

AND SOO,, that's pretty much it what i have to say. Christmas is prettyy cool... hahahaha...[: OKAY, WELL EVERYBODY HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMASS AND HAPPY NEW YEARR!!!!<333> luusseeyy ceeyyhh(:

WINTER WONDERLAND -_-

OMG... Is it still snowing??? I just can't believe it. It's been snowing since 11:30ish in the morning, and the snowflakes are massive. I mean WOW!!! lol, but anyways, IT'S WINTER BREAK!!! [: Can you believe that it's almost the end of the year already??? Super fast man... But yeah, it's been a wonderful year and I loved it. Well, I'm going to go for now. HAPPY WINTER!!!

Friday:12:05:09<333

This is just a summary of what happened on this date. LOL...

First of all, it was school(GRRR:). After school was the party. HAHAHA!!
So, it all started out with all our goodbyes, hugs, and kisses for the weekend. It was meeh and all my other Kuyas and adiings(brothers and sisters). We planned to go to Kent Station and hang out. So, we went and made so many pictures and videos on my adiing, jojo's camera and just having a good time. We went on a mini carousel and everyting. We had a blast. Then, we went to the movies. We went and saw MADAGASCAR 2. It was really funny and it was good a movie. We then just chilled around the courtyard of Kent Station making some more pictures and videos. Then at about 7:00, we were all going to say our goodbyes to each other and go to our warm homes. As we were waiting at the bus stop, my other adiing, just hooked up wit my new kuya in law. So, they hooked up at this date, at 7:18PM. It was so awesome. I was there when the magic happened. Whew, I'm just so happy because they are happy. We all then just waited for our parents to pick us up and go home. That was our little party before the weekend. It was very fun and hope to do it again soon.

That was pretty much my weekend. Saturday and Sunday was just restful days and homework done. Thank yous for reading,
LUCYEE CEE<333

Cyber Monday!!!

Hello to all blog readers. Everybody should know what today is and if you don't know, I will explain.

Today is Cyber Monday. It's a day when you do online shopping and it's like discount galore for it. It was finalized in the year 2005 and has been going well ever since.

I really don't have any experience in online shopping. I really don't know how to do all that. LOL(: All though, it maybe a very good source to use for shopping.

Thank yous(:
Luuseeh Ceeh

Has your Eye ever twitched???

What I'm going to share may amaze you or maybe boring to you. Just answer the question. Has your Eye ever twitched??? Mine has this whole day. And I don't know why. Just right under my left eye, it would twitch none stop. "Is cause I have a cold? Is it just cause?" But I found out what the problem was.

Yesterday was an Election at my school and for president, My best friend, Maria went for it. So in my advisory class, we watched the speeches of who to vote for. It was her and this other guy named Ronnie Jr. going for President. So, it was Ronnie Jr.'s turn for speeches. His was not even all that good. I barely even understood what he said. It was just basic stuff like "I would make this a better enviroment for our students" and other stuff. But then it was Maria's turn. Her speech was very well done and it was so true to what she said. Then her last line of her speech touched me..."DON'T VOTE ON THE PERSON YOU KNOW, VOTE FOR THE PERSON YOU KNOW THAT'S GOING TO HELP OUR STUDENTS AND MAKE THIS A BETTER PLACE". Just hearing that, my eyes were like watery. (: and of course you know who I'm going to vote for.

So Today, was the day of the result of the President, Vice President, Secretary, and Treasurer. It was all good until it was mentioned of who was the President. "AND THE PRESIDENT OF 2008-2009 IS... RONNIE JR." =0 STOP!!!!

I was walking to my class and when I heard that I just stopped and busted out crying. Thank goodness no one saw me. I wouldn't know what to say. It was just heart breaking for me. I know it would've been worst for her. But like, I never felt that way before towards a friend. I was just so mad and sad and I don't know. I just couldn't believe it. It was over.

So how does this pretain to the Eye twitching thing? Well this whole day my left eye was twitching on the bottom. Then I got home and asked my mom if her any of her eyes twitched. And she said yeah but on the top of hers and she says that if it twitches on the top, it means that your happy. But on the bottom, it means your sad.

So yeah, I've been sad this whole day even though I try to put a smile on my face and it's because I cared so much for Maria. After the whole situation, I went to her and I gave her the longest hug I've ever gave to anybody and told her everything.

It's still twitching while I'm typing. It's just weird and creepy. What's weird is that it twitched way before this happened and tried my best to have it stop, but it never stopped. So I guess I'm still sad about it and I am and I still want her to win. I really believed in her and I will never stop believing in her no matter what.

So If your eye ever twitches, make sure it's the top. ALWAYS ON TOP.(:

I hope my eye stop twitching ever today. THANKS FOR READING<3

LISALALA CEE<3

Just another School Day<3

Today was all good at school. Everything was cool. Going to school is a very big impact in my life. It's the place where we find and meet people that we never knew or people that we've known before. School is a place where I feel safe in and it's a place that I never have doubts in. Yes it's a place where you are supposed to learn and get good grades. Though, we must not take our education too lightly. It's the most important thing that we have in our lives that we use. There are so many kids out there that doesn't have this where they are at and we are so lucky. This is so cool. I love School. Thanks for reading:)
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