some things don't change... but they have to...

Okay how long has it been since i been on here?

I don't even know, but mannn this was blogging at it's finest. Never would i have thought to be able to come on this blog site again. you been around since 2009... and well, it's 2019.

yeah, a lot has surely changed.

and yeah... A LOT ... has changed.

but nothing hasn't. and that was your endurance... to keep going. even when it hurts. and it hurts... BAD.

but how tf do i keep doin it? i have no clue...

idk how much my young self knew about her feelings or emotions, but nothing is the same.

and it's okay. very much so.

I love you though. you don't have to do much but just know that you're doing enough. and just know there is someone looking out for you. praying for you... maybe even thinking about you when He knows He's not supposed to :/ hahaha smh


anyways, ugh... i just hope you find peace... <3 nbsp="" p="">
geddit sis hehe. 

Hiii! [:

Well gosh, where do i start? Hmmm... Oh, well It's almost the end of the 2010 Summer season and I'm just gettin a week of chillin ! [: hahaha, yeah, for a summer, i was busy busy busy!!! That's the beauty of being samoan right ? haha [: anyways, yess, I was on road trip to Bakersfield, CA to pursue my duty for the church out there. The assembly churches from Seattle were invited to a little gathering out there to perform and have my senior pastor preach during that weekend. Went for a whole 3 days, !!!! Ughh! mann, it was hell goin out there, buht coming back was a breeze! ;D I was happy to finally make out there because it wasn't final whether i was going to go or not! it was cool tho!... And then, a whole bunch of events were happening, we had an open mic night at my church and we had one of our members coming back from his new home, the Marshall Islands, and he also brought some friends over to perform for us his well done music work out there. It was pretty cool getting to meet the kids that he teaches... And man oh man are they SMALL! hahah [; super short and everything.... we felt like giants ! haha[: damm samoans! Anyways,,, yeah, it was pretty awesome... And now, I'm finally away from Seattle again and I'm here wif my older sister who is living out here in Portland, OR and I'm just lovin it here... still doin chores, buht at least i have more chill time!!! I'm loving it ! too bad im leaving this weekend>.< haha i love it !!! What's so weird is that i've been missing my older sis all week last week... i was just goin through hella stuff with my mom and such, and i was so planning on just running away! Yeahh, waht a loser huh ? Well, i was so liek, on depression mode last week and i just wanted to get out!!! So then my older sis came to my house on Sunday and i was liek, hold up ! I'm spending the rest of the week with you... in portland... okay? haha yeahh! it was like the most exciting idea i've ever had... and then i asked my mom and dad and it was okay!!! Then we were off! and that's when i knew it was true!!!
God really does Answer Prayers!!! hahaha [: No joke tho!!! I love him so much...

Okay, well it's cool now, im just chillin and im very happy now! buht, you know, it's cool to be homesick too ! haha [: PEACESS!!!

Too Long [:

Wow... It's been a while since I've blogged... I guess since i was in tech last year. Well, there's been so much going on lately wif me and family... buht you know, it's all in the past... im in the now !!! Yayyy! [: hahaha i love it

AWW MAN ! Education is everything I guess... =\

Well I finally understand why we need our education and good grades. A lot of times, I think of it as a threat in like a whole different order. If you don't get good grades, you don't get anything. And I mean ANYTHING ! Haha. When I really want something, I have to be checked on grades and how I'm doing in school. I know it's a good thing. I understand now that what I'm doing and what the teachers are doing is not invain

I would just like to take the time to apologize to my teachers. I've been having crazy behaviors in each class that I have. Even though my grades or what I'm doing is none of their business, but the still have faith in us students. Well, most of us (: I know I'm not part of them. But, all my teachers know that I can do better. I know I can too. It's just me. I feel like I have another "Lucy" in me. I don't know how to explain it. But, there is a side of me that wants to work hard and to succeed. Although, there is another side that wants is too much outgoing that goes too far and doesn't want to work at all and that only occurs like that with its surroundings. I know, I'm crazy !!! Oy

It's kind of weird, but it's real. I'm more outgoing than into the books person. Man!!! Why can't I be the books person? Ugh, I never felt this way before. I guess I still have a elementary/middle school mind in me. I really need help to get my mind into being in HIGH SCHOOL ! It's really frustrating sometimes. I don't want to say that I'm dumb, but I know it's true. I try to be funny, though my grades are funny looking. Ugh, just writing this is frustrating to me.

Well, I hope I get my grades up before the quarter ends this Friday. Aww mann !!! Oh well (:

Suprise(:

OMG!!! Today has been the most coolest day ever. Since you've heard about my family and we been doing for my Dad(: Today was the day. He really loved it and everybody crying like forever. He would never thought about having a birthday party like this. He loved it so much(: Everybody was crying nonstop. Especially my dad.

Today was a good day <3 My dad loved it and is very happy(:

xD <3 ohkie xD <3

Awesome Week(:

This week has been really awesome...(as you read my topic;; haha) So, it all started with my sister coming up from Portland, and she came for her kids because it was their spring break. It was a handful because it was those kids and my middle sister's kids. Yeah! Being the auntie was really tiring. Laugh, laugh, laugh... Even though they were a hassle, it all paid off at the end. It's so awesome being with them because I grew up with them. When I was 5, I was officially an Auntie... Ugh;; also the babysitter which was not cool. Haha, but it's all good. They came out nice. Anyways, it was cool and then the next week, (this week), they have school. So it's just me and my sister at home. Monday, that's when the party started;; Cough, cough. Sike, we just walked to Kent Station and back. Haha, It was fun though. Just the little things you get with your siblings is like the best. I say that from experience

I love my sisters so much. You know, since I'm the youngest, I mean the YOUNGEST. My sisters are 33 and 32. Yeah, I don't think I could survive with their love and support through my life. I don't think I could ever do anything without them by my side. I love them. Then, Tuesday we did some more walking. It was fun. We had to turn in an application for zumiez. My sister is looking for a job right now and as we were going around Kent Station, we were just asking for applications or if they were hiring. The funny thing was, I haven't seen any brown person the whole time we were there. Not to be racsist, but it was funny. Haha, It was just awesome being there. Then yesterday and today we rested, and today is my Dad's birthday. He is 75 years young. haha, I love it

What he doesn't know is that my mom and all his kids are putting together a suprise party on Saturday. One of our sister from California is coming up tomorrow to see him and just to hang out with us until Sunday. All his family up here is invited. He's the only person that don't know about it. Thank God that he doesn't hear very well. Haha, I love it! It's been awesome.

This Whole month has been busy with this party and Easter stuff for church. Samoans, haha(: It's just been a blessed month and everyday is something different which I love. It's so cool.

Okay, I'm done <3 (:

who's there to save the hero ?

You know, I really don't know why I picked this topic, but, I'm listening to a song called "Save the Hero" by Beyonce Knowles. The lyrics really reached to my heart because it's really true sometimes. We all have a lot of heroes that are here to save us. But, who is there to save the "Hero" ?




I can't really relate to being a hero myself, although it's something to think about sometime. When I listen to this song, I think of all the tv shows that we've watched and superhero movies and how much, the hero is always there for the people. But are the people for them? Are people that stupid? Is the hero the smartest people in the world? There are a lot of superheroes who we know from tv and movies. But in the real world, we have superheroes of our own. Even Celebrities are heroes to me. They use all their talent(superpowers) to entertain or please the people who watch them. Heroes are here for everybody;; Don't sometimes you think back and think when you were little, there would always be this one person you wanted to be or be like? I know I have. I kind of think that way right now. Yeah, it sounds weird, but those people are our heroes.





We all have different point of views about famous people. We all want to pick up a fight, or somehow you get so obsessed, you search online or on tv on a show or webisode about that person. I know; I've been there. haha [: Anyways, I put a lot of thinking into this because it's true; Who is there to save them? Idk... But, that is something to think about... YOU KNOW ? haha [:
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